I want a change.

I am tired of feeling like I do. I want a change. I'm terrified of living my life. Of being someone other than who I am. How do I strike out and break the mold that I have created of myself? I don't want anything drastic or sensational; just a difference. A difference that people notice. A difference that I notice. I want to use this summer to find that difference. I want my upcoming vacations to be a breaking point for me, where I can strike out and find the person that I know is sitting in me, biding his time, knowing that there is more to me than what I see right now.